Not sure where to post, but here goes. Im really upset, home alone, and have been balling my eyes out all fucking day![]()
So I've had it. I've been with this guy for a year now, and its been pretty downhill lately. We had a fabulous relationship in the past, and he's turned me into a boring housewife, which is pretty good I guess. I used to be a party animal, college dropout, running the streets drinking & doing lots of drugs. When I met him, I settled down a bit, and began to love the boring life.. or normal life I guess...Im back in school, taking mostly online classes at the community college here and doing GREAT!!! Anyways, we got into a huge arguement last night over me not wanting to give him my myspace account password for him to go snooping.. not that I have anything to hide in there.. but sometimes u cant help it if you get messages from exes or random guys asking you to fuck or wahtever else??? In which, of course I DO NOT REPLY!!
((Just a little background: We live together. When I met him I had a brand new Lincoln LS, I had gotten on my OWN in MY name, and my OWN house.. Shortly after moved to his town, and we got a place together. My car started to give me problems, so I had a lot of trouble with the dealership and finally made arrangements with them for them to take it back for what i owed on it. In the meantime he bought "ME" an escalade, which is in his name of course...))
So we sleep in different rooms, he gets up at 8 am starts throwing stuff around, packing stuff for his fishing trip this weekend... So I get up after he leaves and look for my phone.. Both of my phones are gone, including my keys and my TRUCK!!! So I use my neighbor (his uncles) phone to call him and ask him wtf is he doing?? Im supposed to work tonight and have friends over tomorrow night to go out. I just cant believe he'd put me in SUCH a fucked up thing like that... Im stranded here all weekend, with NO food, NO phone, no vehicle.. and I just cant believe he'd do it to me!!!
And to top it all off.. The club where I work at here in NOLA, I LOVE, absolutely LOVE, and make tons of money and have been there for a few years now... Well most of his friends gfs, cousins, and family work there.. So if we broke up, they would all give me HELL working there.. I just know it.. And I could get my own place, its a pretty big town, and work somewheres else.. but I just cant be here anymore.. If we're going to breakup.. I NEED TO GET THE FUCK OUTTA HERE!!! I either want to do one of those contracts and go to Guam or find a decent city I can relocate to fora month, or a few months, until I decide what I want to do with my life. I have finals in 2 weeks, so then Im wanting to get the hell outta here.
I dont know, I love him, and I honestly cannot imagine life without him, but a part of me just thinks, you're too strong for this shit, and you dont need to take it, and you DONT DESERVE IT!!! HELP!! Please!![]()



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