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    Fuck Fuck FUCK!!

    I went into work last nihgt ready to make money. I felt good, I looked good, and on my first set, I did well. I had regulars in there and I had made over $50 in my firt hour and I hadn't sold one lap dance yet.

    Then, I just died. All of a sudden I became completely unmotivated. I just sat in the dressing room and bullshitted. Usually I don't buy anything new unless I have made my goal for the night/week/whatever. Last night I bought a new purse and a new outfit from purse guy and the costume lady respectively. I knew I couldn't aford it and did it anyway. I just stopped caring. I wandered out of the dressing room a few times but didn't talk to anyone and ignored people who waved me over to them. Then I went back into the dressing room and complained that the guys weren't spending any money even though I KNOW it was my fault I wasn't making shit.

    Then I got on stage again and threated to put the heel of my boot in a guy's eye because his hand brushed against my pussy when he was tipping me. It was my fault. I moved when he was putting the money in my garter and his hand kinda got stuck. I knew he didn't do it on purpose. That is not in my nature at all. I'm not bitchy for no reason. He even asked me why I was so upset.

    EVERYONE else got at least 2 dances (the club keeps track of how many each girl does on a clipboard) but I got none. Zero. And I am in the upper 10% in the club money and looks wise. It was like I just refused to make money last night. And I needed the money too! I was so upset with myself.

    I left with $170 when I usually make at least $400 without even going on stage. I don't know what happened or why I did that to myself but I will NOT do it again. I can't afford to fuck up a Friday night! So I'm working tonight and I hope I got all that...whatever the fuck it was...out of my system.

    Thanks for reading my rant!
    "A stupid man's report of what a clever man says is never accurate because he unconsciously translates what he hears into something he can understand." - Bertrand Russell

    "It's just a matter of people having low self esteem and being way too easily offended." -Random Guy on a Internet Forum

    Quote Originally Posted by Katrine View Post
    Ya'll bitches need to calm down. Cerously.
    In other words: Boo-motherfucking-hoo

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    Default Re: I sabotaged MYSELF last night!

    *hugs* That happens sometimes. Once in a while, you are just not in the mood, y'know?

    When I get that way it helps me a lot if I cash in all my tips or dance money into bigger bills and put a one on the outside of it (I strap my cash to my ankle) and then I see this shrimpy little roll there, and feel all lame. And then I HAVE to make more. Dumb, I know, but it works for me.

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    Well, you obviously know you made a mistake - so don't be too hard on yourself, just try not to let it happen again.
    I'm confused, but the Chewbacca Truffle Shuffle cleared it up. - Emily

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    go to work tonight with the attitude that you HAVE to work and you HAVE to do well, no matter what happens. pretend like last night didn't happen and you didnt even go in. try to make up for "not" working last night.

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    when shit like that happens, I write it off. Pretend it didn't happen, let go of the negitivity, and make bank tonight!!!

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    Everyone makes mistakes. Learn from this one and don't do it again

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    Dont worry its just one night dont beat yourself up youll do better next time

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    I did this last night too! After working for 6 days straight, I was just thinking "Who cares!" I made sure to take more time off this coming week, and to make plans with friends. Don't get burn out!

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    Man, I hate when that happens, I've had those nights before. I've taught myself to leave the instant I start getting pissy though. I'm one of those people whos mood is written all over her face. Visually, I can't fake a good mood. And once I'm in a bad mood I'm that way all night.

    So, I cut out, and vow not to come to work until I adjust my attitude. Even if it takes a few days. Good mood = good night.

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    Miss_Luscious, I do that to myself sometimes!

    I rock up to a shift feeling all good, cash in enough before midnight and then my motivation levels just go flying out the window. I think it has to do with some sub-conscious thing where I think I've already made enough early in the night so I can award myself with a bit of "free time" first and work later. But that never works because once I've gone down into that slump, I stay there and it's hard as hell to get back up again.

    Oh well, what can you do? The only way I can avoid that is to keep on working no matter how much I've made at any point in the night. Easier said than done, I know.


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    Well i went in last night and didn't make much more than I made Friday night. But it was really dead so I couldn't have done any better. But my addittude was MUCh better and I felt like I made a lot more money. I did well for the shitty slow night that it was.

    I hate the slumps but love the come-up.
    "A stupid man's report of what a clever man says is never accurate because he unconsciously translates what he hears into something he can understand." - Bertrand Russell

    "It's just a matter of people having low self esteem and being way too easily offended." -Random Guy on a Internet Forum

    Quote Originally Posted by Katrine View Post
    Ya'll bitches need to calm down. Cerously.
    In other words: Boo-motherfucking-hoo

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    Well, at least you know you did it to yourself. That puts you in a better position than someone who honestly thinks the whole world is against her and that's why she can't make money...you know those girls. There's a few at every club, I think.

    I'm also one of those whose face betrays everything, so it's hard for me to fake it when I'm having a bad time. I think I'm masking it well, then customer and dancers I don't even know are pulling me aside and asking what's wrong. A few weeks ago I had a night so terrible, and must have looked like such hell, that I had customers giving me sympathy tips.

    (Hint to customers: when giving a sympathy tip, don't tell the dancer it's a sympathy tip. Whatever meager self-esteem boost your dollar might have given her will be instantly undone by knowing that she looks so horrible and pathetic that you feel compelled to give her alms.)

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    im sending some good vibes your way! really, it all happens to everyone sometime..

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    Default Re: I sabotaged MYSELF last night!

    miss luscious that sounds so much like the beginning stages of burn out. quick, combat it before it takes over. but we all have those days where everything irks us, and no matter what the inner bitch takes hold, so you're totally not alone.

    Love it!

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    I don't want to hear that "burnout" word! I took a year long break from dancing and I've only been back since June/July! I've had a lot on my mind though and that always affects me at work. I really hope that's all it is and not burnout starting again, I can't afford to take another vacation right now!
    "A stupid man's report of what a clever man says is never accurate because he unconsciously translates what he hears into something he can understand." - Bertrand Russell

    "It's just a matter of people having low self esteem and being way too easily offended." -Random Guy on a Internet Forum

    Quote Originally Posted by Katrine View Post
    Ya'll bitches need to calm down. Cerously.
    In other words: Boo-motherfucking-hoo

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