I feel weird about my boyfriend, C. and his new female friend, L.. I actually think she's very sweet and nice and cute, and at first I was all for hanging out with her. I still like hanging out with her, actually. I just keep having little stirrings of jealousy. I've never been a jealous person, so this is strange for me.
This weekend we went on an overnight road trip together -- her, me, my boyfriend, and her room-mate. We all had a great time. On the way home, we stopped to have lunch with her parents, who live out in the country and own ATV's. The four of us were supposed to go riding, but there were only two ATV's, so C. and L. were going to drive, and L's room-mate and I were going to ride behind. While the room-mate and I were putting our shoes on to go outside, L and my boyfriend took off together. They were gone about twenty minutes. Then they came back and got us. I'm sure it was all perfectly innocent. I honestly don't think that anything at all inappropriate happened while they were gone. But I felt really odd while I was waiting for them to get back. Just sort of sad, and...left out.
C. doesn't have many female friends, and those he does have all have boyfriends, so I've never dealt with this before. They go to school together and met in one of their art classes. All of sudden I'm dwelling on the fact that they probably see each other on campus all the time, when I'm not around. I never thought about that before.
I'm annoyed at myself for even having these thoughts. C. and I are really close. He tells me all the time how much he loves me and how attracted to me he is. I'm pretty secure about our relationship...or I thought I was. We've always been really open with each other, but I'm not sure this is something I even want to talk with him about. I'd be embarrassed to even admit that I'm jealous. He's never done anything to make me feel that way.
Does anybody know what I'm talking about?



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