So this is something that I NEVER talk about. To ANYONE EVER. I'm 22 now, and I am quite sure that I have had some sort of level of OCD since I was in grade 9 (as in I remember the first obsession, still have it now). As you all know, I rarely post, although I read SW at least 2 hours per day. So this is NOT a little talk about something I think I may have or just complain about/thought up to gain attention (ie: sophiemarie, lol!). Lately, it has started to completely control my thoughts and my life.
As some of you may know, there are several types of OCD. Some people experience the obcessive behavioral types (washing hands till their raw, checking locks, etc. Think of the movie "As Good as it gets"). I don't have that, I have the other type. The paranoid, in your head, counting obsessively (in my case, I always have to "see" one particular number, hard to explain). Because of this, I "appear" to function quite normally and noone notices or will take it seriously (although I have only tried to explain it to one person who did NOT get it). I am excessively paranoid, worried espeicially about family, loved ones, health, death, natural disastors, etc.
Anyway, I love you guys. And because, I have noone else to turn to (as well as the fact that this is all pretty anonymous), please help me if you can. Is there any suggested reading? Any experiences, help for me? I just can't deal with my rediculous imagination any more!
P.S. If possible, please try not to suggest any drugs, unless there really is some "wonder" pill. I try not to take anything and have only had bad experiences. I'm really in need of techniques and whatever you have to say. Sorry if this post has been long![]()



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