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    Default yup...i'm a winner. ha.

    you know when you see that girl randomly crying in the corner of the dressing room and, if you think anything of it all, you think, what the hell is wrong with her? yeah...well, tonight, that girl was me.

    i officially had my first on the job emotional breakdown. i don't even know how it happened. i mean, tonight was the worst night i've had in, oh, a year. and yeah, i did just receive a knife twisting text message from the toxic piece of shit i'm trying to forget over the weekend. and i suppose i Might be emotional because i just found out that my best friend is basically throwing away 7 years of higher education for a guy who i have ambivalent feelings about.

    BUT.

    this is not "stripper me's" problem! i can usually separate these things! it's one of the things i enjoy about work.

    but tonight i Humiliated myself. i cried in front of the house mom. the girls. the bartender. the waitresses. the dj. the manager. fuck. not Sobbing. at least not that. just that silent weeping. like a leaking faucet. and i did wait until the end of the night.

    damn. i'm so disappointed in myself.

    and tomorrow i have a lunch date that i was totally stoked about that i've officially ruined with puffy post-sobfest eyes. bleh.

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    Oh girl, this happens to nearly everyone at least once.

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    Default Re: yup...i'm a winner. ha.

    it is going to happen to me.

    I still have to work even tho' I am about to euthanise my cat (if her condition doesn't improve tomorrow) ................

    YOU ARE HUMAN.

    Allow yourself to be human. Only robots can NOT be emotional and NOT let life (their OTC life) affect them within the club.


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    Been there, done that. You aren't the first girl to do this and you won't be the last.

    You're human, let it out. Everyone needs a good cry every know and then!

    And don't feel emsbarresed at work, I'm sure there are girls that have done alot worse than cry at your club.

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    I've been there too..Sometimes it's just inevitable. When you go back to work, just get back into your groove. Usually no one will even remember the night before..







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    We've all done it. Most people will forget it, and the rest will just want to make sure you're okay.

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    Oh man I have sooo done that before. It's ok. I embarrassed myself by getting stumbly drunk, giving a lap dance and when douchebag tried to grope me I snapped. Slapped him in the face and huffed back into the dressing room.

    From there I proceeded to collapse against the lockers into loud, obnoxious body racking sobs...yelling about how I hated these motherfuckes and they were NOT allowed to touch me blah blah victim blah drunk blah. It took two managers to console me(shut me up).

    But you know what...nobody ever mentioned it or treated me differently. Breakdowns are just par for the course in this job. And dont even ask me about sneaking into the hallway to cry to my unsympathetic ex(bastard+burn out=tears) It's normal and nothing to be ashamed of.

    Besides I'm sure your little bit of tears is nothin compared to what most girls pull...every freakin night.
    Maybe you should take a few days off and recooperate?
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    Girl, it's ok! You're human, just like the rest of us! No one's going to think less of you for acting like that once in a while.

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    thanks girls

    i think what it really comes down to is that i need to stop drinking at work. at first a drink or two would help me hustle a little more aggresively, but now i'm finidng it hard to keep it to just 2 drinks. and after 4 or 5 seems to be the point at which i start to blur my personal life and work.

    i feel like the last year and half has just been a long, unrelenting series of emotional beatings for me. i'm tough...but it's starting to wear me down. but it's frusterating because it isn't work related, but it effects my work and yet taking a break from work won't do anything to fix it.

    *sigh*

    it will get better. i'm sorry, i've been rambling. anyway. thanks to all of you girls again; you're great

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    Cold spoons on the eyes to bring down puffy post-sobfest-ness

    One of my friends keeps a pair of large spoons in the freezer for freshening her eyes in the morning. Seems to work for her. I'd say keep them in the fridge though - freezer might be a bit too cold

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    Don't worry about it sweetie. I've only been doing this six months and I've already been that girl at least twice. I'm sure everyone understood.

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    yup...i'm a winner. ha. - well the most important thing is that at least you can laugh about it now

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    Oh girl. First of all, I'm sorry you were sad. Second of all, nothing to be embarassed about!! This is a tough job. I have cried many times at work. People say nasty things and hurt your feelings and treat you like shit. I'm not stupid or pathetic. I have feelings, and although I am a professional, they still get hurt.

    I've cried in the dressing room:

    1. When a customer stole my money
    2. When a customer told me I was ugly
    3. When I couldn't make any money

    I've also cried in the dj booth

    1.When my looser dj boyfriend was mean to me
    2. When a manager said something mean about me and it got back to me.

    I've cried on the floor when:

    1. A customer exposed his nasty filthy erect penis to me and I almost touched it.
    2.I got in a fight with my cousin at work and she told the manager I stole money from her to try to get me fired (I've never stolen ANYTHING EVER) and I started crying because he yelled at me in my face.

    So you see, you have NOTHING to feel bad about!! If anything, I am the girl crying in the corner, lol.
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