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    So for the last few weeks I have been feeling very unlike myself.... crying a lot, being out of touch with myself and my body in general. Not really much has changed in my lifestyle... I take Effexor XR 300mg everyday, and that's it. My boyfriend and I have been a little rocky lately, but everything is good now. I find myself thinking about all of the things that I have done that I feel selfish for, and I regret the fact that I have more than so many people. This is irrational I know to sit and think about how horrible I feel about my parents not having money.....10 years ago! Or dwelling on the fact that when I was 14 I accidentally killed a frog trying to save it. I could almost die of the guilt that I feel.

    So I am not sure what is going on.... Am I depressed, or just super empathic? Has anyone else been through this?

    The other day I calmly thought about dying and in retrospect that scared me a bit. I feel a bit better now but I still wonder...what the crap is going on??
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    Quote Originally Posted by danijamesxxx View Post
    This is irrational I know to sit and think about how horrible I feel about my parents not having money.....10 years ago! Or dwelling on the fact that when I was 14 I accidentally killed a frog trying to save it. I could almost die of the guilt that I feel.

    So I am not sure what is going on.... Am I depressed, or just super empathic? Has anyone else been through this?

    The other day I calmly thought about dying and in retrospect that scared me a bit. I feel a bit better now but I still wonder...what the crap is going on??
    Honey, why on earth are you beating yourself up over something that happened 10 years ago? Especially when it was an accident???

    It does sound like you are a little depressed because you're engaging in "negative self-talk." (I hate the goofy terminology but that's exactly what it is, and it makes you depressed because you feel bad about yourself when you keep thinking about it over and over!!!)

    You need to make a list of things you have done in your life-- and recently-- that you are proud of. Why were you trying to save the frog? Are you a good person? Have you done other things to help needy people or animals???

    When I was 16 years old I hit a cat that ran in front of my car. He didn't die immediately. It was horrible. I felt horrible. I should have wrapped it up in a sweatshirt and driven it to an emergency animal shelter, but instead I just stood there like an idiot, crying until a police car arrived. The officer said they would try to save the cat but they ended up euthanizing it the next day.

    Sometimes we all make mistakes. You can't take it back. Its time to forgive yourself. You are a good person- you were trying to help that little frog.

    He probably sent a little butterfly down from heaven to give you this message:
    Thank you my friend!

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    Feel better, hunny!!!

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    Thanks girls it is just hard to function sometimes. I feel like I'm on autopilot!
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    As far as getting the whole positive self-talk thing back up and running, try The Magic of Thinking Big by David J. Schwartz. It helped me and if you're spiritual, try going to your local healer for some rituals that you can perform for closure and forgiveness or just talk to God -- your Higher Power. It works for me EVERY TIME.
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    Wow, that's a high dosage, do you have panic disorder as well? I take 150mg and I feel fine most of the time, just a little foggy occassionally.

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    No, just anxiety, I don't even want to know what I would be like without it!
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    Yeah, it wouldn't be easy for me either hon.

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