Hi Everybody
I don't think I have it in me to dance anymore. I've been under alot of stress for a long period of time. I know u guys all know the negative aspects that come with dancing. Especially the having to block out alot just to get by. My boyfriend doesn't support me dancing. He has just about convinced me that there is no way to have a healthy lifestyle nor respect if I dance. I am pretty weak right now and beat down. over the past couple of years I have had alot of legal-law issues, and now I am in the clear. I just feel really weakened by some of the events of the last year. It is hard to get motivated when I feel shame for the life Ive led. For so long I blocked out reality-I was naiive and able to dance. Now that I am 29, I feel too old. Yeah I look younger then my age, but inside I feel dead. I also feel like no regular job will hire me. I have no resume-dancing for 11 years doesnt look too good. I think honestly I have lost alot of hope. I really dont know what to do. people recognize me from dancing and have nasty things to say I just really hate living here and want to escape everyone. I was good at dancing, I just cant deal anymore. I have come more into reality and I dont like what I am seeing. In alot of ways the relationship Ive been in isnt helping. I dont know where to turn anymore. I have one close girlfriend almost everyone else has shunned me. Its just the way it is. The repercussions are killing me. I know I need to get a grip but all I want to do is run away.



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