(seriously, no one has to read this. i just need to vent.)
i can't live on my own right now. i've been at my parents house for the past few nights, and my cat is there now because i dont want to take him back and forth. i'm at my apartment because i have finals tomorrow and friday, and if i drive here in the morning it'll take hours in traffic. but i just had a panic attack and i don't know why.. all of a sudden i started crying my eyes out and then i couldn't breathe and i miss my cat and i want to go home and i think i'm going to get sick. out of nowhere. one second i was fine and the next i was freaking out.
i cant sleep and i NEED to because i cant get any work done right now and i have to wake up early to make a note sheet for my final (thank god we can use a cheat sheet or i would fail).
i dont WANT to be at home because i fight with my brother and my cat doesnt like my dogs (the dogs live with my mom.. theyre getting better, they just need to get used to each other i know but still). i want to be able to be on my own and i dont know why i cant.. ive posted about this before but i just dont get why i cant be on my own like a normal 21 year old. and i dont understand why im flipping out right now.. ahh.. sorry, i just needed to get that out. if anybody has ANY suggestions, please let me know because i'm ready to move home even though i know i'll be miserable anyway.. i just cant keep dealing with these anxiety attacks.



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We've all got 'em.
that would not help my problems at all, haha. but i'll update when i can and hopefully be bringing good news of me making some changes when i do.

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