Argh...OK.
I had a baby a year ago on June 2nd. Although I'm relatively slim, I'm still having some body issues. I've been thinking about stripping for a long time and I did all the research. I'm still scared. All I wanted was a girlfriend who would do it with me for a while as I got the hang of things. Moral support I suppose. Anyway, all I need to do is drop a few more pounds and I'll be ok to start but the nagging self consciousness and fear of total bitches is practically suffocating me. I live in S fla so the competition is already fierce and I don't know any girls who wanna start doing it. All these feelings are taking me for a loop cuz Im generally very confident, out-going, and have a take-no-shit attitude...ugh...I just don't know what to do anymore...everything is so complicated..maybe I should just start babysitting...It's not like Im ugly either : www.myspace.com/sunnyshelly. You can see for yourself..then y do I feel so...scared and unprepared ?



. All I wanted was a girlfriend who would do it with me for a while as I got the hang of things. Moral support I suppose. Anyway, all I need to do is drop a few more pounds and I'll be ok to start but the nagging self consciousness and fear of total bitches is practically suffocating me. I live in S fla so the competition is already fierce and I don't know any girls who wanna start doing it. All these feelings are taking me for a loop cuz Im generally very confident, out-going, and have a take-no-shit attitude...ugh...I just don't know what to do anymore...everything is so complicated..maybe I should just start babysitting...It's not like Im ugly either :
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