I swear I searched first and found nothing.
5 months ago I met the man of my dreams and admit to throwing caution to the wind... Yesterday I was diagnosed with Trich. My very first and only STD ever! Fucking great Ugh. I didnt have heath insurance and didnt get tested before we started sleeping together unprotected and he just didnt get tested for whatever reason. Im stupid on so many levels we wont even go there.
Its really not that big of a deal (the disease itself), I did a bunch of reading on webmd about it. Most common curable std. 90% of guys dont even know they are carry it until there partner needs treatment. One round of antibiotics kills it. This is all positive stuff.
I was super nervous and distraught about telling him. I mean come on who wants to have that conversation. I ended up telling him over the phone and then he came over late last night. Deffinatly the most ackward conversation we've had to have to date. I was adamant (sp?) about not playing the blame game. It dosent matter who gave it to who, all that matters is we have it and need to take the proper steps to fix it. We love each other very much and want to be together forever and can get through anything.... This is what i keep telling myself over and over. Then i once i start reading the info i realize that pretty much he had to have given it to me. I conclude this because of the fact that i started having symptoms after he started ejaculating in me and the timeing that webmd said about incubation of the parasite ect. I keep telling myself we can never know for sure and it SHOULDNT matter... But these nagging thoughts keep popping up... Like the man i love more then anything gave me an std. He made my vagina sick and its been hurting so much during sex but i've been having sex anyway to please my man but hes the reason it hurt so bad!! ANd when we were talking last night he complained about the fact that we couldnt have sex for two weeks and that he couldnt drink while he was taking the antibiotics. That totally pissed me off, he has never sounded so selfish. But then i thought about the fact that in his mind hes questioning whether i gave this to him... Ugh i dont want these thoughts i just want to take the pills and forget about it....
Anyone else experience anything like this? Meaning getting an std froma partner you love and want to stay with ...
Or have had trich??
I cant believe im even putting this out there, im totally embarrassed but you ladies are so wise and kind I dont know who else to talk to...





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)But if im being completly honest i do kinda have this please my man mentality.. Maybe its the sub in me but i feel Like sometimes you just have to suck it up and deal with something you dont nessisarily want at the moment for the good of the relationship or the person you love. I usually get into it after we start anyway. Just needed to add that... Thanks in advance for all your support and thoughts..

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