i live in tampa, florida (as most of you know). last night/this morning we had a tropical storm. being a florida native, this doesn't bother me a bit.
however, i woke up this afternoon to check the "aftermath". some branches in the yard (what was expected).
then i go look at the car and.......
a fucking tree branch took out my entire back window.
my car's transmission is failing. i need 2 new tires. i just spent money buying a new radiator.
as if i NEEDED this car to be more shitty.
i can't fucking afford to buy a new car (which is why i've been driving this). i can afford PAYMENTS on a car, but no one will give me credit, since i have none.
and yes, i've tried -everything- from small store cards to student cards from my credit union.
i'm 28 and i've never owned a credit card or had any type of loan. i have no debt, but i have no credit. so... i'm fucked regaurdless. and no.. no one in my family can help.
my insurance is high and i only have basic coverage.
so i called them to see if, by some act of god, there was anything i could do.
they informed me that i was correct, and i am totaly fucked.
i told them that i moved and they should update my new address. so they updated my new address.
then they told me that my insurance has gone up 50 bucks because i moved.
WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK???????
how has my insurance gone up because i moved? what the fuck does living in a high theft neighborhood have anything to do with my insurance if I'M NOT COVERED FOR ANYTHING ANYWAY?
>_<
sorry about the rambling way this is all written. i'm very upset right now. the only real big thing i've done for myself in the last nearly 10 years was go to coachella. now i'm even regretting THAT. i can't deal with this shit anymore. i mean, of course i can, i'm just irritated.
i stopped teaching and started stripping so i could afford to go back to school. i've either worked 60-80 hours a week or stripped in been in school for the last 10 years. i also worked when i was in high school. i've taken care of my family, i've mostly done the right things. i've put off starting any kind of family of my own because i'm trying to be responsible and have a fucking stable financial life first.
when is this cycle going to end? i'm alredy a nervous wreck every day hoping that my car while last so i can get to school or work or whatever. the public transportation here is fairly non existant. if i don't have a car i am completely fucked.
why can't i get a damned break?
*edit* yeah i know, it's not the end of the world. i will live. i'll "be fine". i'll calm down and move on. i'm just........ i'm just really sick and tired of feeling frustrated.
.......... i think i'm going to make some soup and crawl back into my bed.![]()



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