I don't know what to do. I found out after having x-rays on my knee that I now need an expensive MRI to find out what is wrong with my very swollen bruised and liquid filled knee ( I can barely walk on that knee and it periodically gives out on me). I also found out from a sonogram they did that I have unexplained fluid leaking onto my gallbladder and kidneys which gives me constant pains under my rib cage. They also found with the sonogram that I have a hernia in my groin (which they said is rare in females and usually only found in males) and that I also have alot of cysts. I also had a bladder infection and a pelvic infection possibly caused from the fluid leaking on to my gallbladder and possibly infecting it. Those are all the major problems that they found. I have been having alot of pain since November but was not able to afford to go to the doctor until now, and since then I have been going to the doctor at least once a week ( and I have to travel an hour and a half away to get to the doctor) so needless to say the bills are adding up. I am going to work every single day to be able to barely afford all of this, and now in a few days I have to go talk to a surgeon about all kinds of sugeries...yikes! Even customers are starting to notice my slight limp because I cannot cover it up.. I wear tall boots and put a knee brace underneath the boots and it still isn't doing the trick.
Ughgh...sorry this is going on and on but I have absolutely nobody in my life to talk to...
Another very very big problem (the biggest one) is that since November I have been physically unable to work out at all. I used to work out on the ellipticle 30 min.-1 1/2 hours per day plus weight training on all the major parts of my body. Since I have not been able to work out I am now getting a double butt!! (there is a second line underneath my butt line) and more cellulite is appearing on my bum and thighs. My lower stomache is getting all fat too. I am going crazy. It is starting to affect my money and my managers are starting to tell me that I have to lose weight. They have fired girls in the past for being overweight and now my job is at risk ( even though I am not technically overweight at 143lbs and 5'7"...I used to be 120 and even though I told them I cannot work out for medical reasons), but if I lose this job I will not be able to afford anything let alone all of these doctor bills. I have tried a couple times against doctors orders to work out but it failed miserably in terrible pains. Lately I have been thinking of taking diet pills even though I have never tried them before because I am desparate to lose this weight. I have heard that they don't work unless you exercise though. I eat very healthy and rarely have any bad fatty foods so I am all in the clear there. I just...I don't know what to do I am getting so depressed...I am only 22 years old for goodness sakes!! How do I lose this weight if I can't exercise?! and how can I pay my bills if I don't lose the weight before getting fired?!
Please please please I need help
I don't know what to do...



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i need them now...
Ugh, this is all horrible.
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