My grandmother has had cancer for a very short time and it's all over. Her liver is not working really at all as of yesterday. I dont know how to digest it. I am going to see her this weekend for the first time in years and it will probably be the last time I ever see her alive. I am totally scared and nervous for various reasons and I just dont know how to handle this whole situation...
here are the factoids floating around in my brain right now
-I dont care one way or the other if she dies. I also feel guilty and bad about this.
-We have no relationship. I was born out of wedlock and she's Irish Catholic. My whole family is the family black sheep.
-I dont know how to tell my father I love him and feel bad that his mother is about to die.
-I dont know how to talk to her. She cant hear very well and I cant be the same person when I have to either repeat myself or talk louder than I usually do.
-I feel bad because I'd rather spend the weekend seeing my boyfriend who I havent seen in a few weeks and my best friend who is finally back from college
If anyone has any advice on how to talk to her I think that's what I'm really scurred of. I dont know how to talk to people who are going to live for like a week, tops. what to do?![]()




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Good luck with everything!

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