Yesterday I worked five hours and made $15. I've paid over $200 in overdraft charges this month, my phone bill is late, and rent's coming due. I don't want to pass off the rent onto K because I already owe him over $1000 in back rent and his show ends after this week. I just got a letter from the IRS demanding their $1200 by July 16. My grandparents want to come visit next month and I can't dance while they're in town. I need money desperately and I'm freaking out because I can't find any other job. I keep sending out resumes but no one wants me, and now I can't even make a living stripping. Stay in school and get a master's degree, kids, so you can be a big fucking success like I am.
So I keep throwing up and crying, and I've discovered that the more I NEED the money, the less I make. That was for damn sure yesterday. I need to let this go and calm down but I can't stop crying and freaking out. I could drink, I guess, but I'm trying to lose weight. I don't want to be at that damn titty bar sweet-talking losers, but I have no other options right now. So how can I calm down and get a grip on myself so I can at least try to make a few bucks?


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I'm sorry to read this...and I can totally relate. Right now I am about to have a baby, but we are so broke that I have no idea how I'm going to come up with my car payment in a couple of weeks. I owe the IRS $2300, several bills are unpaid and I have a traffic ticket I have to pay $200 for right around my due date. I can't seem to get a phone sex call to save my life. I tried making an appointment for an online session but I had to cancel because I couldn't be here when they painted the apartment.



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