Ok...there have been several threads and comments about my weight lately(not only here..I've gotten it on myspace and in real life as well)
I'm finding it REALLY hard not to slip back into starving myself. Sinceeven severely restricting calories doesnt seem to make me lose...flat out starving myself though DOES show me results.
I've been forcing myself to eat SOMETHING...even if it is only some crackers. twice a day. Mostly because if I take my meds on an empty stomach I get ill.
I've been working out like crazy..as much as I can since I'm still a bit sick and weak.(I always get sick when I travel)
I'm trying to keep control and not allow myself the ED feelings..but it is REALLY hard. Esp when your insecurities are constantly being confirmed by others.
I'm currently 5'7" and @ 130 pounds. But I look SO much fatter...130 at my height should look fairly svelte...still curvy, but not fat. But it doesnt look that way on me.
I dont know what the point of this is..other then a pity party for myself. I just need someone to encourage me NOT to starve myself again. I know what will come of it and yet, I cant stop myself.
I'll pull out eventually I'm sure....I always do. But I'm pretty depressed right now.


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Eat. Because really, if you starve yourself, a) it's not healthy, b) at some point you're going to start eating again, and since your metabolism will be shot, you will gain weight quickly and be back in the same position, and probably in a worse state emotionally.
I believe you Dottie and you have my support 


I hope you'll consider counseling more. I also know that there is nothing that anyone else can say if you're determined to loose a few pounds. I've been there. We definitely don't want you to starve yourself, as sxybrat said, it can cause all kinds of problems including a much slower metabolism causing you to gain more back when you do start eating properly. 
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