i feel like things are just getting worse and worse lately and i don't know how to fix it.
part of it is my own fault. i sabotage myself when it comes to things that might make me happy, whether i do it consciously or not.
i just keep thinking that things can't get any worse and they do. i don't even know how things ended up such a mess like they are. i'm never happy with anything for long, and i know that i attract people/things that are bad for me. and i KNOW this and fully recognize when i'm doing it but i do it anyway.
blah. i just dont know how to get things to improve again. i don't even know where to start.
i'm good at hiding it, at least, thoughi was talking to someone and saying that i complain way too much these days and they were like you always seem pretty happy to me! i guess it's good that i at least fake it. fake it til its not faking anymore, right?




i was talking to someone and saying that i complain way too much these days and they were like you always seem pretty happy to me! i guess it's good that i at least fake it. fake it til its not faking anymore, right?
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