I'm still smoking. Very bad. very very bad. I feel like a shit for even admitting it.
It's time to quit. Tomorrow. I'm smoking my last one now, and I don't have any more, and won't buy more. But..my boyfriend smokes, ad he will buy some. He won't smoke around me, and he won't let me smoke, so that will help.
But how do I quit? I've never tried, and honestly, the thought scares the crap out of me.But the thought of the harm I'm doing scares me worse. SO I'm done. But the question remains..how??
I've never used sheer willpower before in my life. Not a strong characteristic of mine.
I'm doing everything else right except for this. I won't even go in the hottub anymore. But I smoke. That's so shitty of me. Guilt is good. I can guilt myself into not smoking.
Help! Advice, support, anything.
I don't even miss not drinking, but I'll miss not smoking.
How terrible and pathetic is that


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