Hi, Stripperwebbers. Last night was my first night back at work since I had surgery in June. I made over a grand and I feel just awful about it. This is why:
I had a wonderful customer last winter and spring -- very respectful, fun to hang out with, and spent very good money on me. It was great. After several months he decided he wanted to stop strip-clubbing, and while that was a loss of income, I understood the reasons and we stayed in occasional touch by e-mail.
When I needed a website designed for my dayjob project, I got in touch and asked him if he could recommend anyone, since this is kinda his field. He recommended himself. I had some hesitation -- mainly about having a customer know my real name and other job -- but decided that I really do trust this guy a lot, so I agreed to work with him. He's been awesome -- very professional, put way more work into the site than I asked him to, and is charging me a very friendly price. So far so good.
Since we're in touch, he knew about my abdominal surgery in June and that I wouldn't be dancing for a while. Last week I got an email from him (to my stripper email, although he knows my "real" one) asking if I would be going back to work soon and if he could come and see me. I had even more hesitations this time, but in the end I couldn't turn down the prospect of big money. My dayjob is a labor of love and doesn't pay well at all and my boyfriend can only work part-time while he's in school. After six weeks of me not dancing, we were running out of savings.
Long story short, I went in to work and ended up spending most of the night with him in VIP. As always, he was fun, respectful, and incredibly generous. At the club I felt OK and it was really easy to slip back into stripper mode. When I got home, though, I started feeling terrible.
I feel unprofessional for letting someone who's now part of my "real" life see me as a dancer. I also feel like I'm taking advantage of someone...I know that this customer likes me a lot, probably more than he should. On some level, he must know that he's paying me to provide a service, but I think he also hopes we'll be together someday or something like that.
I kind of feel like telling him I can't dance for him anymore and just giving the money back. On the other hand, he's handsdown my best customer...and I could really use the phat roll of bills sitting in my purse right now.
I'm confused.



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