i don't know what happened to me tonight.
i was a very, very heavy drinker. more than most people knew/realized. one of the guys at work said that he didnt think i drank very much when we were talking about my dui. i realized that the reason people might not have thought i drank as much as i did was because i drank so much. when i got to work, i started drinking immediately, drinks that were about half vodka, half soda. and i downed them pretty quickly. i was a pretty well functioning drunk until i wasnt. like, i was ok til i wasnt. there was no in between.
so it was a pretty fair assumption for me and the girls i work with to make that i was having withdrawals from the alcohol. tuesday will make 2 weeks that i havent drank. however, now that i'm home, i'm not sure if that's what it was.
ive had horrible headaches for the last 3 days. couldve been stress with my car situation and missing school. i didnt think much of it. tonight i started to feel nauseous, and then things progressively got worse. i was light headed, sick to my stomach, had chills and was shaking, on top of the headache. we all thought it was alcohol withdrawals.
as soon as i left work, though, i felt fine. i dont feel totally fine but i am much much better. i still feel a little sick and my arm hurts, which is weird. but that leads me to think it might have been an anxiety attack, a really long one, caused by.. i dont know.. i drank 3 sugar free red bulls because i was tired, which couldve triggered anxiety. but i never had an anxious feeling like i usually do.
i dont know what to think. all i know is that i totally couldnt work. i tried to go back on the floor and thought i was going to pass out when i was giving a lap dance. any thoughts?



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That's not an easy thing to do!
before you go in ??




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