
Originally Posted by
Kaylinn
oh...this is me.
I can be all happy and look foward to work, but the closer I get to having to go in, the more nervous/sad I start to feel. I start to cry often. As I drive to work, my stomach starts knotting up, I start feelin ill....most of the time, I keep driving and never go in. When I do go in...I wander aimlessly around, or sit in the dressing room, hardly ever talking to guys. I may stop and talk to 2 or 3 guys.
My lapdances feel awkard and uncomfortable. It's very obvious I'm not into it.
What can you do?
I have foudn since starting school I feel much better about working. I have also discovered that takign things in steps, and not thinkign abotu the end result helps. Don't think about needing to get ready for work. Just think abtou takign a bath. Then just think about putting on makeup. Not for work. Just to put it on.
Then on the wya to work, start to psych yourself up Liosten to loud music to get in the party mood. Start telling yourself how hot you are, how all the guys will love you and want you.
Whedn you get to work...get yoru first dance as soon as possible. if it takes 10 no's in a row, don't stop until you get that dance. I have foudn that if I stop afetr 3 no's, I'll never start again. Push through, keep going, and once you finally get that dance, the momentum starts.
Also, pressure to make money ruins me. If I have a bill due, I cannot make money. All I can think abotu is that biill. Gotta make $1000 for the rent. Gotta make the rent, need the rent. OMg. I only have $100. I'll never make the rent. What am I gonna do?
I have to tell myself I don't need money. Whatever I make is fine. I'm in good shape. Anythign is a bonus. I have to give myself permission to only make $100 and be ok with that.
When I remove the pressure of HAVE TO make money, when I tell myself even $100 is ok...I make a thousand. If i tell msyelf I must make a thousand, I'm lucky to make $100. Funny how that works...
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