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I hate this.
this is why I went off the pill the last time.
I have a long history of ED's, since I was 11 years old- I've been recovered for almost a year now, but I don't talk about it ever, because that part of my life is over. I feel really fat.
I know fat isn't a feeling.
About a week after I went on birth control (YAZ) which I thought WOULDNT make me gain weight/be bloated/look fat/feel fat, I started noticing all of the above.
I dont know if I've actually gained weight because I have a no-scale no-numbers policy, but I feel really bloated, not just in my stomach, my arms and thighs too, they just feel bloated and gross. My clothes don't feel tighter because I wear skirts and talk tops every day- no jeans to judge by. I don't think I can even dance like this, I don't feel confident to take off my clothes, not even in front of my boyfriend. I don't even want to look in the mirror. I'm in florida right now and I doni't even want to go to the beach because i dont want to wear a bathingsuit in public.
I think the pill is triggering me, somehow. I don't know. I just spent 120 dollars on two months worth of pills though, and I don't want to waste them, and I don't want to use condoms. AGH. I hate this. I need to get off this pill. Should I get off this pill or should I just wait it out and see if my body stabilizes?
anyone else have anything similar to this?
I know if i get off the pills I'll go down to my normal size/state of non bloatedness and nice FLAT stomach.............AGHaljgsdklfjklajfklajsdfjkljk lfj klas IW ANT IT BACK.


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