well, they were more like aquaintances. i got so embarrassed! am i the only one who reacts this way? i hid in the dressing room. and i'm pmsing, so that doesnt help. i felt bloated last night from attacking reeses. they tried to come tip me at stage and i even told them 'hey look, i'm not cool with you watching me dance so if you want to keep the cash, go ahead' one of them approached me and started naming people i knew (i didnt know him, but he was with people i knew). he begged me for some dances, which i declined. i just couldnt do it. i got awkward, and even told him he must be thinking of another girl.
i keep work and my personal life seperate. some people i dont even tell them i dance. i do this job sober and always have. i dont hate what i do, i just get REALLY awkward if people i know in my personal life see my work life. it's like i have a split personality or something.
i get these fears. it's based mostly on past experiences of not being treated very nice when this job comes into discussion. so to protect myself, i keep the two seperate. or i get this fear that they may say something personal about me to another patron that could put me in harms way, like where i live or something. people do stupid shit.
looking for people who can relate. ever freak like this, ladies?



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