When I started dancing I agreed with my SO that it would pretty much be a big secret. My family could know about it, and my friends (at least those that weren't involved with his friends in anyway). His family, and his friends all think I waitress in a town 45 minutes away.
I really, really do understand why he wanted it to be this way. He's 20. His friends are the type that would give him and I a really hard time about it, and his friends not knowing doesnt really bother me, its more his family.
I am very close to his mother. He had a bad accident, almost died, and we spent 2 months in the hospital with him and became great friends. Unfortunatly, she is not open minded towards things like stripping. I have heard her say more than once, things like "don't waste your money on those sluts". Basically if his family found out, theres a good chanch they might decide to hate me, or at least talk shit about me all the time.
But the lyings starting to get to me. I feel bad lying to somebody I'm that close to. I work at his parents restraunt once a week. She thinks when I work at my other job 45 minutes away, I work nights and have to be here at 4. Yesterday she asks me if I can work today, if she lets me out early. Today is the last day before my club has new owners, so I'm going in at 1 and staying all night (might as well make the money in case the shit hits the fan). I had to pull shit out my ass and she felt bad that I couldn't just help her out a little.
I really don't know what to do with this situation. I hate living a lie. I have to hide my clothes, shes, make sure nobody sees me in my makeup, be careful how much money I spend in front of what people ect.
Also...I can't even really defend stripping if it somehow come up in conversation. I mean, I can to a point, because I have a right to my own opinion, but I can't get to passionate or use myself as an example.
Anybody else dealing with something like this?





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