i searched and didn't see anything about this...
i'm bipolar and used to cut/burn myself... so i have a lot of scars.
under the black lights most of them more or less don't show up... but when i'm sitting up at the bar, other dancers and customers ask about them... and in the dressing room other dancers ask about them.
it sucks. i have SO many scars. i never even wore short sleeves at my last job, so here i am in basically next to nothing, all my scars hanging out...
i get asked at least once a week by a customer, and every dancer i really talk to has asked me almost immediately what all my scars are from. i never know what to say. its easier at a more conventional job, where maybe one or two scars are showing... but when i have it all hanging out, i don't know what to say.
i bullshit something or other... but i dunno. if i never would have done that shit, my body could have been really pretty. i've mostly gotten over my worries about whether or not i'm fat or pudgy or lumpy or whatever... but i can't get rid of all these scars, unless i get enough money to get some kind of laser surgery, and even then, i have SO many scars it will take thousands and thousands of dollars and years of treatments.
i hate to say this but i'm hoping someone here can relate, even if they only have a few scars... its crazy. i don't know. i hate it. that's my biggest regret.




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As far as people asking, I would just tell them it's none of there business to shut em up.


. Its really not anybodies bussiness anyway. I've told people I fell into a thorn bush before...all sorts of weird shit. Surprisingly, out of the few dancers I've told, I'll get a "oh I used to do that" or "this time I tried to kill myself". It's still nobodies bussiness and I'm not saying tell everybody...but don't feel like a freak or anything...you'd be really surprised how many people can relate on some level or another.




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